Though she isn't foolish enough to blame it all on Suletta. This side of her was new but when she connected all the dots she was beginning to draw a picture that almost made sense.
Miorine wonders if this was on her list too. ]
Secilia? Your first mistake was asking her for any help ever. But I'm not mad What were you so worked up about that she felt like she needed to help you out?
[A sigh of relief. Suletta decides not to give herself a point, but she doesn't give one to Miorine, either.]
Ah - no, that isn't true! Secilia-san is... She's bold, but she gives good advice. She's knowledgeable.
[Her defense of Secilia given, and perhaps a little sullen that the game seemed to be over, she continues on.]
It was clothing advice, really! But, ah... also. I suppose it was romance advice too. When I told her that you and I don't see much of each other, she suggested something like this. It sounded like something you'd like.
But once her ire has passed she feels a little bashful, affection bubbling in her stomach.
She underestimates how Suletta might feel about her being gone, especially when she always has so many others to keep her occupied. Wordlessly, Miorine sends Suletta two pictures:
One is of her lock screen, it's a picture of Suletta trying ice cream for the first time. Her cheeks are stuffed full of dessert and she looks euphoric.
The other screenshot is of her wallpaper once her phone is unlocked. It's the picture Suletta has most recently sent. ]
[The pictures she's sent make Suletta first look exhausted — not that picture, she thinks — whereas the second one makes her flush in a mixture of pride and embarrassment.]
Ehe I practiced this time. After a while, it wasn't as scary to take the pictures. Secilia-san was patient while I got it right. Oh! I'll send another.
[In this one, she's in a black dress. It manages to be tasteful, but it's far more daring than anything they'd wear to school. It's strapless, leaves her back exposed, and it clings to her body in a way nothing else had thus far. Her posture while seated in the windowsill again is relaxed — the dress is long and flowing, but the leg crossed over her knee is exposed. She's wearing a pair of strappy black heels, and the photographer has caught her in a candid moment, because her head is thrown back in laughter.]
[She'd been in awe of the photos when they were done. All were her, true, but... she had been transformed.
She was beautiful. This person in these photos was strong and unafraid. This person decided where she would go, what she would do, and when. This was a woman who answered to no one.
...
She'd had to turn her face away from Secilia, just for a little bit.
Miorine answer makes her smile fondly.]
OK, I will. I will. I promise. No Nika-san or Chuchu-senpai either?
What do you like about this one?
[No asking her if she liked it altogether this time.]
those two are fine They're not dangerous like that woman.
[ best to not question it further ]
What do you want me to say? Seriously How far do you want this to go
[ because suletta was capable of being spooked - miorine knows these things can be delicate, one bad experience could make things harder down the line. ]
Miorine's bluntness did not bother her, usually. But today, right now...
Suletta feels her mouth thin. She has the flicker of a thought, one that makes her body feel like a slow-burning furnace, smoke licking at the back of her throat. The thought is simply that she should roll over and go to sleep without bothering to answer.
She breathes in through her nose, out of her mouth. She has to do this several times before she feels the heat in her being driven out.
[Suletta is quiet too. In part it was the necessity of such — there were curfews for a reason. The school was safe as houses. The duels were bloodless; they lived in a comfortable bubble.
She's careful not to dawdle. More to the point, she's troubled. No, no, that wasn't the right feeling.
Sad? No. A little bit, maybe. The feeling she's searching for is annoyed. It's a disappointed annoyance, like the kind she used to get when Aerial would beat her at a shooting or strategy game. She slips into Miorine's room without incident. Miorine barely used it now; she was so busy. Suletta kept it clean for her regardless. On those evenings where she missed Miorine particularly, or simply missed quiet, she would sleep here alone.
She settles herself before she finally talks to Miorine.]
I'm not sure.
[She's got her cheek against a pillow, the phone close to her, on speaker so she doesn't need to move much. She mumbles the words.]
It feels strange to ask for things like this.
[She closes her eyes and tries to think of how she felt while taking the photos.]
I, ah...
How far have you gone, Miorine? You seem to... to know more about these things, so I wanted to learn more on my own.
[Suletta smiles a little, a sad smile.] I thought so. There weren't any others my age on Mercury, so I couldn't tell if it was odd or not.
[It's a clearheaded admission, given without stammering.] It's alright. I told Secilia-san, when she complained — "Miorine-san is grumpy, but she's kind." That's why I knew you didn't mean it.
[ what a question, she has to think about it so she foregoes being annoyed at that grumpy comment. ]
I've never thought about it— I mean, just because I've done it doesn't mean I'm that worldly. Hm..
[ she makes a thoughtful noise, sounds like she does when Lilique asks her a complicated billing question. ]
I like leaving marks. I have a bad habit of being attracted to popular people.
[ Miorine assumes Suletta will connect the dots as to why those two things are related. She's quiet like she doesn't want anyone to overhear, never mind that she's alone in her room. ]
[Suletta feels the ache that Miorine's earlier comment had caused her slowly ebbing away. With its absence, her usual hesitancy threatens to fill in the space — Suletta quells it. She instead listens to Miorine. For a time she's quiet, mulling it over - there's a slight intake of breath.] Oh, I-
I understand. I see.
[...]
Is that why you wanted to take the pictures of me instead? [a pause.] You don't want others to see me that way?
[ She says it like the word has a bad after taste. These things had never been much of an issue with her other partners but Suletta is more shy, more careful. She asserted her boundaries in a way that was always half scared. ]
Taking pictures isn't that hard, I just need to get a camera and read some guides. Next time.. let me do it. And if I'm not around do it yourself.
[ Miorine's toes curl with excitement when Suletta agrees to her demands. She's blushing, not that Suletta would know. ]
Good.
[ for some reason Suletta's question makes her smile— maybe it's just because she misses her. She sounds warm when she speaks. ]
I thought you were the scared one. You always pull away when things get to be too much.. I don't really care if you do, but I'm not going to go out of my way to make you uncomfortable.
[ she's up now, some burst of a second wind making her walk around her room.
There is much she wants to say: about Suletta's upbringing and the hand Prospera had in her isolation. But she foregoes that.
One mountain at a time. ]
I was lucky, all of my experiences with that stuff were good. But it if you get off on the wrong foot with things like sex it can mess you up. I just want to make sure you're comfortable, that's all.
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Date: 2023-06-22 10:22 pm (UTC)Though she isn't foolish enough to blame it all on Suletta. This side of her was new but when she connected all the dots she was beginning to draw a picture that almost made sense.
Miorine wonders if this was on her list too. ]
Secilia? Your first mistake was asking her for any help ever.
But I'm not mad
What were you so worked up about that she felt like she needed to help you out?
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Date: 2023-06-22 10:35 pm (UTC)Ah - no, that isn't true! Secilia-san is...
She's bold, but she gives good advice. She's knowledgeable.
[Her defense of Secilia given, and perhaps a little sullen that the game seemed to be over, she continues on.]
It was clothing advice, really!
But, ah... also.
I suppose it was romance advice too. When I told her that you and I don't see much of each other, she suggested something like this.
It sounded like something you'd like.
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Date: 2023-06-22 10:40 pm (UTC)[ It's a little payback, maybe.
But once her ire has passed she feels a little bashful, affection bubbling in her stomach.
She underestimates how Suletta might feel about her being gone, especially when she always has so many others to keep her occupied. Wordlessly, Miorine sends Suletta two pictures:
One is of her lock screen, it's a picture of Suletta trying ice cream for the first time. Her cheeks are stuffed full of dessert and she looks euphoric.
The other screenshot is of her wallpaper once her phone is unlocked. It's the picture Suletta has most recently sent. ]
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Date: 2023-06-22 11:00 pm (UTC)[The pictures she's sent make Suletta first look exhausted — not that picture, she thinks — whereas the second one makes her flush in a mixture of pride and embarrassment.]
You liked it that much?
[This question is genuine.]
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Date: 2023-06-22 11:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-22 11:18 pm (UTC)I know.
What else about it did you like?
I like knowing your thoughts.
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Date: 2023-06-22 11:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-22 11:33 pm (UTC)And then, a miraculous event.]
No. I asked you first.
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Date: 2023-06-23 12:38 am (UTC)Your confidence.
You're never not self-conscious
Even around me
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Date: 2023-06-23 12:59 am (UTC)I practiced this time.
After a while, it wasn't as scary to take the pictures. Secilia-san was patient while I got it right.
Oh!
I'll send another.
[In this one, she's in a black dress. It manages to be tasteful, but it's far more daring than anything they'd wear to school. It's strapless, leaves her back exposed, and it clings to her body in a way nothing else had thus far. Her posture while seated in the windowsill again is relaxed — the dress is long and flowing, but the leg crossed over her knee is exposed. She's wearing a pair of strappy black heels, and the photographer has caught her in a candid moment, because her head is thrown back in laughter.]
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Date: 2023-06-23 01:24 am (UTC)[ It's corny- her heart skips a beat.
And then a moment later: ]
next time you want to take pictures like this tell ME not her.
I could have done all of this.
And I would have styled you better
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Date: 2023-06-23 01:58 am (UTC)[She'd been in awe of the photos when they were done. All were her, true, but... she had been transformed.
She was beautiful. This person in these photos was strong and unafraid. This person decided where she would go, what she would do, and when. This was a woman who answered to no one.
...
She'd had to turn her face away from Secilia, just for a little bit.
Miorine answer makes her smile fondly.]
OK, I will. I will. I promise.
No Nika-san or Chuchu-senpai either?
What do you like about this one?
[No asking her if she liked it altogether this time.]
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Date: 2023-06-23 02:47 am (UTC)They're not dangerous like that woman.
[ best to not question it further ]
What do you want me to say?
Seriously
How far do you want this to go
[ because suletta was capable of being spooked - miorine knows these things can be delicate, one bad experience could make things harder down the line. ]
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Date: 2023-06-23 03:00 am (UTC)Miorine's bluntness did not bother her, usually. But today, right now...
Suletta feels her mouth thin. She has the flicker of a thought, one that makes her body feel like a slow-burning furnace, smoke licking at the back of her throat. The thought is simply that she should roll over and go to sleep without bothering to answer.
She breathes in through her nose, out of her mouth. She has to do this several times before she feels the heat in her being driven out.
Then, she calls.]
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Date: 2023-06-23 03:20 am (UTC).. I thought you were staying at the Earth house dorms.
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Date: 2023-06-23 03:29 am (UTC)Her voice is a whisper. It's difficult to read her mood.]
I'm going to your room.
[In the middle of the night? It's more likely than you think.]
Um, just a moment... I have to climb down.
[She's nearly silent as she climbs down. There's barely a sound when she's back on her feet.]
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Date: 2023-06-23 03:37 am (UTC)Suletta usually wouldn't keep her up so late even if Miorine had a penchant for doing so anyway. ]
Okay.
[ is all she says, not mad but just quiet in that way Miorine was. ]
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Date: 2023-06-23 05:04 am (UTC)[Suletta is quiet too. In part it was the necessity of such — there were curfews for a reason. The school was safe as houses. The duels were bloodless; they lived in a comfortable bubble.
She's careful not to dawdle. More to the point, she's troubled. No, no, that wasn't the right feeling.
Sad? No. A little bit, maybe. The feeling she's searching for is annoyed. It's a disappointed annoyance, like the kind she used to get when Aerial would beat her at a shooting or strategy game. She slips into Miorine's room without incident. Miorine barely used it now; she was so busy. Suletta kept it clean for her regardless. On those evenings where she missed Miorine particularly, or simply missed quiet, she would sleep here alone.
She settles herself before she finally talks to Miorine.]
I'm not sure.
[She's got her cheek against a pillow, the phone close to her, on speaker so she doesn't need to move much. She mumbles the words.]
It feels strange to ask for things like this.
[She closes her eyes and tries to think of how she felt while taking the photos.]
I, ah...
How far have you gone, Miorine? You seem to... to know more about these things, so I wanted to learn more on my own.
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Date: 2023-06-23 05:41 am (UTC)I've had sex, but only ever in relationships. A lot of people in our grade haven't- rich kids just have a lot of freedom and time.
[ She imagines Suletta curled up in her bed and speaks to her like she's right beside her- voice low. ]
I keep being condescending without realizing it.. sorry. You can ask me about stuff like that you know.
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Date: 2023-06-23 05:54 am (UTC)[Suletta smiles a little, a sad smile.] I thought so. There weren't any others my age on Mercury, so I couldn't tell if it was odd or not.
[It's a clearheaded admission, given without stammering.] It's alright. I told Secilia-san, when she complained — "Miorine-san is grumpy, but she's kind." That's why I knew you didn't mean it.
[A pause. Cautiously, she begins.]
What kinds of things... do you enjoy?
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Date: 2023-06-23 02:25 pm (UTC)I've never thought about it— I mean, just because I've done it doesn't mean I'm that worldly. Hm..
[ she makes a thoughtful noise, sounds like she does when Lilique asks her a complicated billing question. ]
I like leaving marks. I have a bad habit of being attracted to popular people.
[ Miorine assumes Suletta will connect the dots as to why those two things are related. She's quiet like she doesn't want anyone to overhear, never mind that she's alone in her room. ]
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Date: 2023-06-23 04:21 pm (UTC)I understand. I see.
[...]
Is that why you wanted to take the pictures of me instead? [a pause.] You don't want others to see me that way?
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Date: 2023-06-23 05:35 pm (UTC)[ She says it like the word has a bad after taste. These things had never been much of an issue with her other partners but Suletta is more shy, more careful. She asserted her boundaries in a way that was always half scared. ]
Taking pictures isn't that hard, I just need to get a camera and read some guides. Next time.. let me do it. And if I'm not around do it yourself.
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Date: 2023-06-23 05:53 pm (UTC)[...]
Okay. I will, next time. I won't let anyone else see. Only you.
[Her smile returns, melting away the distant glassiness in her eyes. She snuggles in closer to the pillow.]
You don't leave marks on me. Why?
[She can guess why: she wants to hear Miorine communicate it.]
... Miorine, are you frightened?
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Date: 2023-06-23 10:18 pm (UTC)Good.
[ for some reason Suletta's question makes her smile— maybe it's just because she misses her. She sounds warm when she speaks. ]
I thought you were the scared one. You always pull away when things get to be too much.. I don't really care if you do, but I'm not going to go out of my way to make you uncomfortable.
[ she's up now, some burst of a second wind making her walk around her room.
There is much she wants to say: about Suletta's upbringing and the hand Prospera had in her isolation. But she foregoes that.
One mountain at a time. ]
I was lucky, all of my experiences with that stuff were good. But it if you get off on the wrong foot with things like sex it can mess you up. I just want to make sure you're comfortable, that's all.
[ and then, in a grumble. ]
It's not like I've ever seemed disinterested..
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